Sunday, April 13, 2008

Release

This is a real life story with names modified to protect the identity of those who wants to share their life story.

This time, it had to happen. He couldn't stop it nor find any means to postpone it. What has to come will have
to come, and he knew it for he breached his vow and will now suffer the consequences. Suffering is his destiny, despair his fate, hollowness in his heart was done by himself and he has to receive the consequences.
The poor girl suffered at his hand. Sweet, pretty, innocent, smart, adorable, a real darling... Serene was her name, given by her mother, inspired by a great woman who fought for the rights of women. Attending a convention, it was where she met him. He was assigned to be in the same team as she was. It was then he caught her attention. Smart, brilliant, good looking, eloquent, he was her ideal guy.
After getting to know each other for some time, he fell in love with her and henceforth, began dating. Not long after, they became intimate, so intimate they began carressing each other, getting more physical than they should be. Heavy petting and sensual massages, it was then they succumbed under the pressure and indulged in fornication.
It was then they realized all they were told about sex in relationships were all a lie.
On the contrary, sex destroys than unites. It destroy the respect between each other and defiles the marriage bed. Somehow, instead of feeling proud or satisfied, a deep sense of revulsion overwhelmes and emotions go haywire. Sadly many of the things where they thought would unify are the reason their relationship fell apart.
Serene felt disgusted and she felt horrible forhaving her purity defiled, her honor trampled upon, her virginity destroyed and her self respect lost. For Brock, he regretted every action he did to her. Now she's left without a value and is now in depression. In a way, he disgraced her. Everything destroyed, Serene felt as though she couldn't respect herself anymore, that her most valued possession was lost: her virginity, Brock felt like a rapist having defiled the girl he once claimed to love too much.

Months later, even after reconciliation, they couldn't stop thinking about that night where they had sex. It was shameful to even mention it, shameful to even admit it. Even when they made a vow to never indulge themself in futhur sexual encounters, the lust in them grew strong, with experiece and memory feeding it. Sometimes when they're alone, Brock would try to reach beneath the bra to fondle her or even insert his hands into her underwear and finger her. And sadly, he couldn't tell that it was wrong for when he engaged in premarital sex, he tore away part of his being and perverted his morality, hence the term sexual immorality. Poor Serene wanted to retain the little value but yet, she too succumb under the sensuality of perversion. Secretly, she enjoyed the touches, the sensuality, the feel of her flesh but... It was wrong. How guilt would always hur ther and torment her. It kept going on like these for 6 months and Finally, she couldn't take it anymore.
Crying bitterly, She phoned Brock and told him it's over. She knew it would hurt but it's the only way to make things right again, to cut off the source of the problem and move on. It was hard but Brock didn't make it hard for her. They had so many memories, it was all too much. But he too knew they had to part because they would both suffer worse than ever if they remained together.
Sadly, the end came and both parted though they were reluctant, though they were so much in love, it can never be. Both took time to sort out their misery, their confusion, their misguidance, in hope that all would be whole again.
Patiently, they waited till they have recovered from their problem before getting together again.

*to be continued